the old time, would never be the same

i wonder if all of this time, it was just a lie.. sometimes, when you being friends with somebody, you could tell wether it is a lie or not. i wished i never go through this kind of things, but i was so unlucky that i got caught in this situations. what should i think, what should i react, what should i say, what can i do is just stand still and reflect myself. keep wondering, would help i guess ;( the person that i love all of this while is hating me so much. what can do? nothing! im just gonna hurt myself if i keep asking the same ques, because the answer would be the same which is NOTHING!